哭着游弋 笑着前行

      当我还是小孩子，所有的事对我而言只有：想做/不想做——一切哭笑只为开心或是不开心。
      当我慢慢长大，父母亲告诉我什么是正确的，什么是错误的。于是，我知道，事情还有：能做/不能做——是非观念开始形成，很重要。
      当我初离稚幼，人师引导我怎样做会趋向于利己方向发展，怎样做导致的结果将对己无益甚至有害。所以，我领悟到，事情更可以分为：应该做/不该做——开始学习如何奔向“成功”。
      当我渐渐发展出独立的价值观，人父人母人师都在笑看着我的顺利发展。我做了所有“能做”、且“应该做”的事，拒绝了所有“不能做”的事。至于那些“能做”但也许“不该做”的事，却让我分外的纠结！我发现，一些“不该做”的事可以让我快乐，拒绝后我悲伤压抑，我不自觉的哭泣，因为我感到委屈。
      我忘记了最重要的——那些“想做”的事——可以真正带给你快乐的那部分！

      很羡慕那些可以按照自己的想法大声的哭、大声的笑、随性做事、洒脱做人的男男女女——很羡慕，甚至是嫉妒。因为自己做不到！很悲哀，不是吗。在我完成了完备的教育、接受了美好的家庭熏陶，走上了“让人放心”的人生道路，我突然发现——自己不会快乐！！——“不会”，能动词，指不具备这样的能力。

      于是，我做了一个处于本心而不是为别人而做的选择，是那个真正的自己而不是别人眼中的自己该做的选择。酸甜苦辣，都真实的让人颤抖。只为了，让自己真正的活一次，快乐一次。

      ps：要拥有快乐的能力，才能让所爱之人快乐的生活。

      昨夜电闪雷鸣，惊醒；很想念你温暖的怀抱。
      搂紧我轻声说：不怕...不怕，我在...我在呢
      
      医生说，我必须坚持用药，睡眠功能紊乱需要长时间的调整。
      从诊室出来，翻出某个深夜收到的信息：外面风大，别怕

      ps：你是我的定心丸

      人心不足蛇吞象。
      现实的欲望是很犀利的武器，可以击碎梦想的台阶。你希望步步为营，偏偏被它打落阶下...
      
      ps：该信个什么

      A man was sitting on the edge of the bed, observing his wife, looking at herself in the mirror.
      Since her birthday was not far off he asked what she'd like to have for her Birthday.
      "I'd like to be twelve again", she replied, still looking in the mirror.  

      On the morning of her Birthday, he arose early, made her a nice big bowl of Coco Pops, and then took her to Alton Towers theme park.
      What a day! He put her on every ride in the park; the Death Slide, the Corkscrew, the Wall of Fear, the Screaming Monster Roller Coaster, everything there was.
      Five hours later they staggered out of the theme park. Her head was reeling and her stomach felt upside down.
      He then took her to a Mc Donald's where he ordered her a Happy Meal with extra fries and a chocolate shake.
      Then it was off to the cinema with popcorn, a huge Cola, and her favorite sweets M&M's.  

      What a fabulous adventure! Finally she wobbled home with her husband and collapsed into bed exhausted.
      He leaned over his wife with a big smile and lovingly asked, "Well Dear, what was it like being twelve again?"
      Her eyes slowly opened and her expression suddenly changed. "I meant my dress size, you retard!!!!"

      The moral of the story: Even when a man is listening, he is gonna get it wrong.


      ps: And the women either.

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